Emma turned six last week and graduated from Kindergarten yesterday. 6! Goodness I can hardly believe it. I’m so unbelievably proud of her, and so thankful we’re on this journey together. I remember that tiny baby, the little hand in mine, first steps and words, and starting school. As she grows I learn more about her, and find to love about her.
I’m challenged everyday to do the best job I can in supporting, caring for, and loving this amazing little person. The words below have been running through my mind over the last week or so, and I thought I would share them here…
My gorgeous girl, when you read this one day I hope you’ll see in my carefully chosen words the desire to show you with each of them how much I love you. They are not perfect, not especially eloquent. But still I’ve written them for you. And although my words won’t necessarily make any sense at all today, I hope that they remain in your heart till you need them.
I am absolutely certain you were made specially for me, and that I was made specially to be your Mum. You are quirky, crazy and individual. Imaginative and creative. You are passionate and interested and love to learn. You my dearest girl are all of these things and a million things more. And I love you for every one them. That quirky sense of humor, imagination and kindness shine out and make you YOU.
You are inherently and immeasurably valuable and you bring a sunshine that no other person can ever replicate. Please don’t build your self worth around what others think of you or allow others to dictate what you can and can’t achieve. Learn to know your strengths, skills and abilities, and if you ever loose sight of them, come home to me and I will remind you.
Go ahead and make wishes, dream big, and build castles in the sky. But always know that you have the strength and character to make all of those things a reality. And when you’re uncertain, when it doesn’t work or you can’t see the next step to take, know that you have a family who will be there to help you climb that mountain whenever you need.
In years to come there will inevitably be times where we don’t see eye to eye, when you think I don’t understand and in actual fact maybe I don’t. But please know that there will never be an action or thought or issue that will stop me from loving you. If there is someone in your life or mine who tells you that I will not love you because of something you or they have done, that there is something you can’t tell me because I will be terribly disappointed, angry or upset, or that you simply cannot ever tell me, know that this is NEVER true. I will ALWAYS love you. And I will love you for telling me the truth, even when it hurts, and is heartbreaking, and is excruciatingly hard to do so. The love between Mother and daughter is never ever so easily broken.
I’m proud of you. I love you. Everyday. And I always will.