Do you ever wish for a different life? A slower pace or a more creative space? Do you ever feel like something is missing, or that something is slightly askew, but you can’t quite put your finger on what it is, let alone make the changes necessary to really feel like you’ve transformed?
It’s been on my mind recently; the rush of daily life and the focus on things that just don’t hold real value. It’s getting through the day rather than enjoying the day, stringing together moments that just get me from A to B, or to the next meal, or to bed time. I feel like I’ve been stumbling forward, haphazardly, and I know it’s in part due to the year that’s been, but I feel like I’m missing the bigger picture some how.
I admit I don’t know exactly what or how to change, or where to find focus. I’m wrapped up in getting the kids to school on time, getting to work on time, getting loads of washing done and the dog fed. I think it’s something about mindfulness and choices, but I don’t know. And I’ll admit that my brain is foggy with stress and sadness, and I’m weary, so working it out is taking some time. I’ve thought a lot about blogging recently but been distracted and unsure, and then procrastinated my way back to the couch.
I’m looking for that spark, that moment of clarity that breaks open a doorway. Or even a window… I’m not picky. I have in mind that I’d like to challenge myself to read something for my soul; it’s been so long since I’ve read something, though I’ve always loved reading. I want something really thoughtful and considered, that connects and lights a spark. It’s about small steps, and the coming holiday season makes me think I could do this one thing to get started.
So I’m on the hunt for some reading, something for my heart and mind. If you have a suggestion, I’m all ears.