What a year! 2015 has been such a milestone year for me and my family… I’m equal parts sad it’s ending and relieved for it to be over.
I started 2015 with the Ali Edwards online workshop One Little Word ( you can find out more about this workshop here). I stuck with the program for the first few months and then life took off and I didn’t get back to it. And while for a moment I feel guilty, how can I be anything but grateful for all it brought! My word was BRAVE, and I’ve achieved so much this year with this as my mantra. When I re-read those original posts, and in particular the words ‘I don’t expect to be tackling my dreams next week’ I have to giggle… I guess I did! Back in February I had no idea that by July one of those dreams would be coming true.
I don’t write this to gloat or be boastful, but more to share what worked for me. I truly didn’t know I could do it until it was done… And I’m still pinching myself. There’s a lot I still need to do and to continue to work on (more on that in another post), but BRAVE gave me somewhere to launch from and do things I never thought possible. The focus on my word, on what it meant to me and what it would look like in my best life has been a revelation. And I can’t wait to continue the process for 2016.
Paisley Vintage has brought laughter, delight, tears, and frustration. In opening the shop I’ve learned so much, met loads of lovely people and been overwhelmed by the support of my family and friends in helping me make my dream a reality. It’s not every day you get to make it happen. Becoming a stockist for Annie Sloan has been a dream and I love spending my days chatting about paint! I’m feeling hopeful for the future with Paisley Vintage, and have lots of ideas bubbling along for the year ahead that I can’t wait to share.
Speaking of sharing, many of you would know that in 2014 I separated from my husband. I was devastated and when I shared my story here on the blog I was embarrassed, ashamed, even scared of what was to come. Looking back now I’m grateful to have shared with you all, as many of you subsequently reached out in support, sharing your own stories and offering such kind words. And so here I am sharing again – this past year DK (my husband) and I have slowly been piecing together our relationship and though I don’t know what the future holds (the older I get the more I realise I don’t know the answers) I’m hopeful. It’s difficult to admit the mistakes and forget the hurt of the past, but in being BRAVE, I have focused on being open, and mindful, and taking one step at a time.
Life is never all sunshine, and this year I’ve lost a friendship that was very important to me. I don’t know what happened, maybe I never will, but I will remember an amazing friendship and that this friend helped me through some intensely dark days and that is something to be grateful for. And between you and I, I’ve been struggling with my health and well-being (physical and mental) and I’m currently avoiding the doctors calls. My health was actually part of my plan for 2015 but I didn’t make progress here at all. It’s that fear thing again! So I think I know where my 2016 One Little Word is going to come from, but I’m a little scared to commit to it….we will soon see! I hope you’ll all come along on the ride with me.
Whatever you have done this year, whether small steps forward or giant leaps, I hope that today you feel the opportunity awaiting in the new year. If you are participating in One Little Word please share below, I’d love to connect with others as it’s always nice for a little support!
So farewell 2015, you’ve been more than I could have dreamed for myself. And hello 2016, I can’t wait.