This post has been bubbling round in my head for a few days. I’ve been was thinking about why I procrastinated about getting my March and April prompts completed for One Little Word… because once I did them I felt like a load had been lifted, I’d said what needed to be said and now I just have to get on and do it! (If you’re new to One Little Word you can check out my original post here). I’m excited like I haven’t been in a long time. I’ve had mixed emotions about a milestone birthday coming up, about where I’m going and what I’m doing. And now, setting my ideas in motion and seeing them down on paper, I’m feeling BRAVE.
February’s prompt was all about making a collage – making my word visible and using images to represent the different ideas I had swirling round about my chosen word. When I look at those pictures they represent a life I want to live, how I want to feel, what I want to see or feel. For some reason that house there, with its verandah and overhanging trees, just makes my heart sing. It reminds me of sitting in dappled sunlight, of watching the kids play in the yard, of an inviting space to relax. It’s a perfect mix of vintage and country and a million things in between.
SO my collage has food, sites, scenes, words, all manner of things that speak to me. I pulled out a huge pile of magazines that were OK to be torn apart (because, you know, there are some that aren’t!) and started searching. And once I got started I was amazed at how quickly I found things that resonated, and seemed to work with what I’ve been dreaming of.
For March these were translated into intentions. And this is where I fell over. I procrastinated. I did everything other than write the words down. I even cleaned stuff… which is REALLY saying something. Of course that was all counter productive when I know exactly where I want to go and what needs to happen to get there. But it’s a scary leap to take… to put the words out there and then give myself the chance to achieve it. It seems it’s as much a fear of failure as it is about success. Do you ever feel that way?
So I chose four areas I want to particularly work on; Organisation, Paisley Vintage, my Health and relationships. I’ve made the plan, developed a rough timeline and started asking questions. I can tell you that I’m already a wary of that health one, but I know it’s something that has to be done. And I know there are some easy things I could do straight away to fix it.
This course as really fed my love of all things creative – my binder is becoming something really special to me and I love looking through it for a reminder of what I’m working on. And have those two cheeky cherubs smiling back doesn’t hurt either!
Whatever happens I’m enjoying exploring the possibilities. And this weekend I’m painting… which is just perfect!